this is not at all what i was planning when i sat down.

Stupid haircuts. I know that I have had my fair share. I am still not sure if I truly did it because I thought it looked cool, or because I knew it would alienate me further from the norm growing up or if I did it just because I could and many people I knew either couldn’t or didn’t dare. I don’t know. I guess that the thing that makes me think about it is that most of the stupid haircuts I had when I was a kid are considered normal haircuts where I am today. I will not allow my baby to have a mohawk until they are old enough to cut it themselves. It is kind of a trip for me to think that way, but that’s just how I feel. I guess when I was acting like an idiot, not only considering failure as an option, but embracing it as a way of life, I also determined that I would not ever have a meaningful relationship with a girl or ever have a kid. I knew that I would not be able to provide what I know that a child or relationship would need in order to be in any way successful. I lived my life accordingly. I understand that success is very subjective, but come on, seriously. I honestly cannot believe that anybody truly wants to be a drunk or addict when they grow up. I personally have embraced failure, because I was too lazy or depressed or drunk to be capable of achieving anything else. That doesn’t mean that I liked it. In fact I hated it… and that was the problem that they fed each other, my feelings and my actions. They were a cycle of self destruction… and when people would point it out I would act proud of what I was. “Yeah, you’re right. I did it on purpose. I was hoping that looking like this would make it so you wouldn’t want to come over here and talk to me because you are an idiot.” Any way, I guess this is part of growing up. I totally lost my train of thought. Maybe more on this later… I don’t know... Oh yeah! The bottom line, this post is not really about haircuts, understand that, haircuts just got me thinking.