A little bit of self reflection. Feel free to go "blah" and skip.

What the heck? It has been less than a week since my last post.

I don’t even know what to say I just really wanted to say hi to everybody. This last week has been kind of cool. I have been nominated as “AOJ student of the year” at Grossmont College. Way cool. What does this mean? This means that I will get an award of some sort that I can put on my resume, and maybe on my wall. It also means that I will be submitted for “Grossmont Student of the Year.” I guess they will put me together with all of the other department nominations and vote later this semester. I think that is awesome. It is kind of nice for me to feel like there are people that see what I do and want to make sure I get recognition for it. This is something I didn’t have to apply for or pay for or do anything for except do what I do, which is whatever the heck I want, gosh.

I had to type a biography to be turned in with my nomination. My instructor told me to include any major achievements, or hardships that I have overcome. It was kind of a trip. It is really hard for me to imagine that merely five years ago I would have been content to be an assistant manger at Arctic Circle, just so I wouldn’t have to do anything with myself except go to work and then go party.

One time in high school I was riding in a car with a couple buddies of mine, and one of them asked me the question something like this: “What are you going to be like when you grow up, do you plan on always being such a punk?” My reply was “Yeah, of course, why would I change?” I really need to write Jason a letter.

I feel like I could not enjoy the perspective I have on the world if I had not grown up the way I had. I laugh because many of the “hardships” I have overcome are ones that I could have avoided had I not been so bent on chaos and destruction in general. In spite of it all, I feel like I have managed to acquire a fair amount of tools to add to my life skill set.

I guess that I am also glad that I never really lost touch with my ability to rise to the occasion. I think that one of gifts that I was born with is the ability to fit adequately in a many different situations and settings in spite of my sense of fear or how nervous I am. I understand that there is a thin line between confidence and idiocy, but whatever you want to call it, I have it.

Oh yeah, Hi.

-p