I like sand dollars.

So the other day I was goofing around with one of my bosses at work. We have like a million running jokes, and on this particular one I was seriously beating it dead, like you should have let it go five minutes ago, dead. After a good laugh, I thought about how many times I wish I would have tape recorded some of the stuff coming out of my mouth, and of course I thought it out loud to Charles (this particular boss) and he was listening pretty intently. so I continued to think out loud about what I would do with all of this tape recorded verbalization, and I decided I would publish them in a book called "idiot book."

On nights like tonight I have a hard time getting to bed because of my very un-routine work schedule. I do not want to start doing homework because it is too late, and I just want to go bed but I'm not very tired yet, and unlike my beautiful wife, I cannot just fall asleep because I know I need to. Usually I surf the web for a little bit after I have watched some stupid late night program on TV and getting irritated for wasting my time watching TV, but after I check my email and a couple of websites I realize that this is an act as pointless as watching late night TV. I was not going to start a blog because I already have enough stuff to do, and often find myself pressed for time to meet deadlines. Tonight however, I decided to check out mom's blog and thought to myself "it's time to start the idiot book", so I did.

Since my conversation with Charles, I have had two instances that I can remember thinking about they would go perfectly in this book. I forgot what they were, and now that I have decided to actually write some of this stuff down, it kind of bums me out. Maybe I will get a recorder of some sort and just leave it running when I know I will be around people.

I found out something interesting the other day. I was helping a classmate with an informative speech, and her topic was ADD and ADHD awareness because of her son. It was really interesting to me, because although I have been diagnosed with ADD, I never took my medicine because of how it made me feel. Instead I chose to make it a point to be the master of my head. I am not always successful. Anyway, some parts of her speech really jumped out at me, I can’t really explain how it made me feel, because I am not really sure. It was just strange. She was talking about how typically teachers and other adults see these kids as lazy disrespectful trouble makers, and also about how they are often alienated from their peers because of how they interact with other people due to this disease. I guess the part of the reason it was strange was, at that moment, after hearing her speech, my whole life up to now made sense. For the first time ever, I truly understood why life was so odd growing up. After this moment of clarity, I felt such strong emotion that it made my eyes start to water. I am not quite sure what sort of emotion I was feeling, and that is the other part of the strangeness. It was just weird.

I have a tendency to say “and now you know” after some of the things I say. I almost ended that last paragraph with it. I usually say it when I don’t really understand how I got to saying what I was saying and cannot even remember where the verbal train of thought even started, and now it does not make any sense anyway but I am still talking about whatever the heck I want to. I don’t think I am ever going to put “and now you know” in idiot book, it just doesn’t belong.